Caregiving for a narcissistic mother. Do we do it out of love or out of years of guilt and programming?

Has anyone noticed that the trolls stay away from this thread? Hahahaha, do you think that they are intimidated by this group, knowing that this group knows all of the tricks up someone’s sleeve?

Geeeeez, there are some very odd posts sometimes. Interesting…

Hi, it’s been awhile since I’ve posted.
my MIL is a covert narcissist. I have Been BLISSFULLY no contact since March of 2020 😃 lots of drama regarding her living in our rental with roommates and hoarding. To many comments and shitty behaviors towards me an my only child Dear Husband.
My husband hasn’t seen his mother since he moved her out of the rental in July of 2020. Yes, her crap and roommates crap stayed in our rental for months! I had to send a formal letter stating we would pay 1 month of storage. Mind you, she had help from my husband, our daughter (17) and flying monkeys to move.
DH has finally come out of the FOG. He still has some work to do in regards to her guilting him over the phone. He hasn’t seen her since July 2020.
Her bday is this weekend and he has offered to have our daughter drive her and her FM (flying monkey) to our cabin property that has been passed to him. Falling apart when we got it.
Im worried she is going to pull some form of guilt and he will get into a funk/bad mood. I’m hoping that DD driving her 1-1/2 hours to and from the property will alleviate her guilting him on the car ride if he had to take her lol. She only shows her crappy side to DH, her brother and me. DD is my child from a previous marriage… so she’s not family (MIL words)
Im torn between wanting her to behave and wanting her to mess up. DH said if she acts up…he has done his diligence in trying to spend time with her.
I refuse to get her a gift. He bought her a card. In the past we would splurge and take her out and she would invite her FM and order to the nines. Also would invite herself and 2 uncles b-day (they don’t get along) they ordered over $350 worth of cocktails and surf/turf grrrr many more stories of her thinking we are her piggy bank (she can well afford things btw) sorry got side tracked 😂.
hugs to you guys in healing from these Monsters!
oh, yeah (ex-foster child here) she has stated more than once to me that we should do things for her because “I know you don’t know this but that’s what family should do” her words. To many shitty comments and behaviors towards me and my husband to even mention here. Good riddance!

Lisa,

Yay! Congrats! Fantastic! Good for you and hubby!

Sometimes that is what it takes, right? Total separation. There’s no in between. It takes totally getting away from toxicity to realize how deadly the poison is.

I am very happy for you and your husband!

“I know you don’t know this but that’s what family should do”

The "I know you don't know this" is the cherry on top. Yep, this one goes in the Hall of Fame of NM BS

Please tell your cow of an in-law:

"I guess that is what happens in some families. I don't chose to do that".

I didn't do hands on care for either of my elderly parents.

They brought me up in a loving middle class home and paid for college educations for me and for my brothers. Because that's what parents do.

They did NOT expect anything in return.

We supported my mom in her care of my dad when he was ill. We arranged for good care of my mom when she could no longer live alone.

THAT'S what families do. They pay it forward.

Lisa,

I love your last two words of your posting. “Good Riddance!” That’s exactly how you should feel.

There are some people that we just can’t make peace with. She sounds like someone that isn’t worth the effort of even trying to get along with.

If people like your MIL are displeased and the relationship ends, that’s a blessing!

Dear Friends, I have been out of the loop for a few weeks now (busy helping DH sort out his mother's estate, and we have the builders in) although have tried to keep up with the various news, good and not so good, from posters. Best wishes to all, especially those having a tough time. I have resurrected this post as it seemed the most relevant place for what I am about to write. Earlier this week I slipped in the shower, fell backwards heavily and cracked my head and arm against the hard shower tiles. Thankfully I didn't lose consciousness but was concussed and spent a few hours in hospital getting checked out. I am so lucky to not have any broken bones but am very bruised, have a very sore head and need to rest at home for a while, with no driving. It was a very frightening experience. I phoned my mother to explain what had happened and that I would be unable to drive over for the next week or so. She took this in good grace but was really not that concerned about my wellbeing and hasn't been in touch since to see how I'm doing. I suppose I'm not surprised, as she is an NM, but it is still incredibly hurtful and distressing. I am posting this experience to again warn others of expecting much, or anything, in terms of concern or support from an NM, as they just cannot give it.

My goodness, Chriscat. Hope you feel better soon. Lucky you did not break anything. Sorry about not getting support form your mother. She might be aware of your problem at first but forgot. Try not to take it personally. I know it is hard, but you do not need any added stress. That is what I do most of the time and if it still bothers you I would have a serious discussion and explain your feeling. You would feel better once you get it off your chest. I had some major health problems in the past and I told my mother and she felt bad in the moment and then forgot about my problem. I wanted her support more than anyone else in the world at a time in my life when I could have died but with her memory loss the support was only there for a brief period of time. My mother was always concerned about her family. She would always put others first. As a declining elder and lots of health problems she has been more focused on herself. I do not take it personally because she was never like that before and I know it is difficult for her. I love her unconditionally. It is difficult to see some changes in her, but mostly she is her sweet self.
I hope you start to feel better soon. It might have been lots of stress that caused to to fall and hit your head. It happened to me while my mom was in the ER. I had new shoes on and was rushing to let my niece in the door to the ER and my foot got stuck to the tile floor and I took a flip and hit my head against the wall, I was on blood thineeres at the time.. I was in the same room as my mother overnight. It was definately stress and lack of sleep.
Take care of yourelf, get support from other family members if possible and get help when needed. Sending my thought snd prayers to you. Hope you have a quick recovery.






























































Take care of yourself, try to get enough sleep if possible and get extra help when needed. I did and it made less stress in my life

Chris: Oh, no! I am so sorry to hear that you fell in your shower and injured yourself. Thank goodness you were okay after being evaluated at the hospital. I am sorry that your mother offered zero comfort, just when you needed it the most. That's terrible. Take care of yourself.💖

Thanks Earlybird and Llama. Agree that a stress-free environment is needed right now. My boys are running the house for me and I am catching up on some light reading. I can’t face the noise and movement of the TV so a quiet book is better. Have just finished Warlight by Michael Ondaatje. Amazing book, and I’ve got so much more out of it while resting.

PSA for every person in this thread.

Somebody finally wrote a book for US. And it is the only one out there, literally. The author says in the preface that she wrote the book for that very reason, there was nothing out there for us! Us being adult survivors of narcissistic abuse (or any kind of abuse) that are now faced with caring for the same elders that abused us.

Your turn for care: Surviving the aging and death of the adults who harmed you
By: Laura Brown

I bought it last night and started reading it on my kindle. I'm just starting and already hooked. A book like this is long over-due. And we are FAR from alone.

One, I will pray for a positive outcome for you and peace.
Two, you have encouraged me to seek counseling. Not just for myself, but also for my husband.
Our lives have been turned upside down by temporary caregiving revolving into permanent living situation.
That person has since left our home. We went into this blindly with an “it will all work out attitude”. Wrong!!!!
Also, the arguments over this situation brought out some honest dialog that my husband and I need to address concerning our marriage.
We only endured this drama for months. I could not fathom those who continually live in a pressure cooker for years.
I am so grateful for this community. Honestly had no one to talk with. I posed a question, and got genuine feedback and suggestions. It solidified that my gut instinct was right.
What I have read on these posts just astounds me. So many people hurting.
I will continually pray for all of you.

Bevel,

I have truly discovered that you have to take care of yourself first!!!
I have bent over backwards and twisted myself in so many different directions trying to placate my NM.
At this moment, we are not speaking.
I called her out and gave her the ultimatum that she's not welcome in my home until she sees a therapist. I knew going into it the response I was going to get. Narcissist don't like confrontation.
My brother (her flying monkey) has told me that she is moving back to Colorado in March. We'll see!
In the meantime, I am going to do my utmost to not get sucked back into her narcissistic web!
I pray you find the courage (without the guilt) to take care of yourself first!!!
Mothers are supposed to love and nurture their children without expectations!!
God bless!

Gotplayed,

Sending you prayers!!

I sought therapy for myself and it helped tremendously!

So after a really nasty texting war,
I am still no contact with my NM.
I have blocked her number and on FB.
Although I feel totally crappy for ignoring her at Christmas, I have to say that today has been so pleasant and mostly stress free!!
Merry Christmas and God bless!!
(((Hugs)))

xrayjodib: Thank you for your update.

It’s been a while since I’ve been here. My mom has been stable since the last major health scare in 2018 (or 2019?), when she was with me for 2 months. I’ve really done my best to minimize contact. It helps that’s she’s 2,000 miles away.

But now we have new issues, due to a conpanion’s health issues. Major changes are creating instability. I flew out there last minute to put things in motion so that she can stay there and be as independent as possible. Partly out of love, but mostly for my own self-preservation. I don’t want her here. My state isn’t big enough, never mind my home.

She’s been texting me non-stop since I’ve been home. Ack! I need to put in place new boundaries. And I binge ate today. I think I’m in mourning for my lost childhood again. It’s so hard to deal with her, even as an adult with lots of coping skills. I feel so sad for the child I was, trapped in an abusive situation. I always get wound up after I care for her. It just feels so fricking unfair.

I have many book marked articles about narcissists that have helped me over the years. I re-read them and often there's the "Ah-Ha!" moment when yet again, another aspect of my mother's behavior becomes so much more understandable. She's been dead over 17 years-I was her care giver, I over looked a lot of her behavior then and now have such a better take on how toxic she was. Nor will I allow myself to dwell on this-but when I'm feeling overly stressed or angry about nothing at all-will re-read one of those articles and voila! Yep, for me, it puts everything into perspective, I work through the tar baby of narcissism and life goes on and I feel much better.
I have so many, many more good days now, because of lots of therapy, reading related materials as needed, writing, it ain't easy, this has taken years, but over all I'm in a good place now.
They aren't going to change-I can (change).