Replacing the much lamented 'On My Mind' profile option, this thread is for musings, jottings, whimsies, preoccupations and the rest of the thesaurus for anyone to jot down anything they please.
I can't remember what the maximum character count was before, can anyone else? But anyway it wasn't very many so let's keep to that.
What we have observed so far since the release of the Covid vaccines:
Covid vaccines do NOT prevent infection.
Covid vaccines do NOT prevent spread
Covid vaccines do NOT prevent mutations
Vaccinated people still get Covid, spread Covid, and some died from it. Same for unvaccinated people. No difference.
The only thing Covid vaccines are supposed to do is to reduce the severity of the symptoms. This benefit has to be weighed against the severity of the side effects of the vaccines.
The US government just awarded the first claim of injury or death from the Covid vaccines. There are currently thousands of claims allready filed. And I expect a lot more soon and in the future as long term side effects come to light.
Sorry Polarbear, I don't know what you are talking about, I didn't call anyone here any names. If you mean the anti vaxxer comment - that was about the fanatical, in your face, rude, and disrespectful of everyone else just doing their jobs people who are acting like idiots, yes IMO they are very much looney tunes (and given that we are nearing 90% vaccinated they are very much in the minority). If you choose to not vaccinate but are going about your life following mandates (however reluctantly) and respecting other people's different choices this in not you.
If we all just change the name of something, then change the definition of everything, and then remove the time and dates from all publications, we will end up brainwashed, gaslighted, and confused.
Changing the name of this thread from ON MY MIND to
OUT OF MY MIND may shorten the posts, because no one wants to admit how crazy the pandemic has made each of us over a long period of time.
cw - amen, the great divide...
Health and healing to all. We've been through A LOT the past 20 months.
Ali wonderful!
My tolerance to my hubs and his emotional roller coaster personality is down to nothing and I think that's part of the problem. I'm always having to adjust myself to his moods. If's he's up it's a good day but when he's down and when I say down in his case this can mean just about anything. Swearing, cursing wishing death upon his fellow mankind, or sullen, whiny and constantly complaining and feeling sorry for himself. Its gotten to the point that I don't even enjoy his good days anymore cause I'm just anticipating the bad day just around the corner. He's not abusive. He's just self centered and childish. He comes from a culture that babies their men and treats them like they are Kings. I'm not from his culture.
I just can't do it anymore. When do I get to have my time to wallow? When do I get to lay around, feel sorry for myself and have him be my pillar of strength. Cause inevitably when I'm feeling sad and need comforting I may get it for half a day and then it's back to him, him, him, him. He's so used to me being the strong one, the sensible one, the comforting one that when I'm feeling like I've been feeling lately he just looks at me and gives me the "snap out of it" expression. He's completely useless in bad, sad, situations. When my mom was dying he couldn't even comfort me then. I've always been good at comforting myself with my faith etc. but that isn't even working for me these days.
These last few days I just have shut down emotionally. I don't have it in me to give him the pep talks, the listening ear, the adult speeches. I'm just so tired of having to prop him up endlessly.
I love him.........but I just don't know what to do anymore. I don't know if I can live like this anymore. I don't want to leave him but what do I do?
Any advice?
PS: He doesn't think there is anything wrong with the way he acts so suggesting he goes for counseling just won't fly.
Can you try just ignoring DH for a few days? Leave him to his own resources and don't participate in the "dance"?
I think I'm going ignore everyone myself...
A few thoughts - "Swearing, cursing wishing death upon his fellow mankind, etc " - being around that is emotional abuse in my books. When he is behaving better, I would tell him that I can't be around someone who behaves like that as it is too hard on me -and when he starts leave the room and go somewhere else. He is getting what he wants which is your attention and support. You can choose not to enable his behaviour by changing your behaviour. Stop the pep talks, the listening ear, the adult speeches
I agree he is self centered and childish. Pandering to his moods doesn't do you nor him any good.
Focus on yourself and getting your needs met. "When do I get to have my time to wallow? When do I get to lay around, feel sorry for myself and have him be my pillar of strength." Take time to wallow if that's what you want to do. Have your pity party when you want one - BUT - and a big BUT here - don't expect him to be your pillar of strength. Find your support elsewhere. Maybe with a change in dynamics in your relationship he can learn to be more supportive - maybe not. In any case you need support sometimes and if he can't/won't give it you need to find it elsewhere. I am not suggesting you find another man. Think about where you can get the support you need. I know it is not easy.
You don't HAVE to prop him endlessly. It is your choice to do so or not. It sounds like you are burnt out. Concentrate on you and doing what is good for you, what lifts you up and stop doing what drags you down.
It seems as though others are facing some challenges as well. I hope that relaxation, contemplation on life and family and what's good about life help you, me and the others here through the rest of the year and through the pandemic.
This winter I took care to set up mine and the steps for the winter with non-skid mats so I, visitors, and those delivering items would be safe, but I had an incident the other day, too.
The last grocery deliverer scattered the groceries all over the front stoop including placing two cartons of eggs, not bagged, on the edge of the stoop. I stretched and leaned over to get the eggs and started to lose my balance. Took a big step to counterbalance - all good so far - but that meant I stepped off the stoop, over a step and landed one foot on the driveway, which slopes down. From then on I must have looked like a drunken sailor leaning into a high wind as I lurched about 1/3 of the way down the driveway, trying to regain my balance, grabbing a rose twig on the way - which didn't help - and finally landing on my side with the side of my face and the edge of my glasses hitting the concrete. I got up right away.
My glasses aren't broken nor are any bones. I just have a little scraped skin on my knees and a small cut on a finger, a sore spot on my thigh and a few wandering aches here and there. I haven't found any bumps or bruises other than a goose egg under my eyebrow, a sore cheek bone and a lovely black eye developing where my glasses dug into my eye. I guess my bones are good and I consider myself very fortunate, if not very pretty, at the moment.
Had I been on level ground I don't think I would have fallen, but gravity took over.
I am so glad I didn't land on the eggs. 😉
Fast healing and recovery.
Golden - a close call, wasn't it? Glad it wasn't worse.