I care for my 97 yr/old mother who has dementia. Mom lives with me in my small house. The hospice bed is set up in my living/dining room and she is now bedridden and needs more care.
My younger sister has visited 3 times over the past year, only because it looked like mom might pass. (Really bad UTI, Covid 2 times, hospital stay, skilled nursing) She has ALWAYS stayed with me when she visits over the past 9 years.
My sister is coming next week, for 3 days, along with my older sister for 2 days. I do have a guest room but one sister will have to sleep on the couch. Caring for Mom now is extremely hard and I was looking forward to a break and some help. Plus, I wanted them both to experience what I deal with on a daily basis and see that I am not exaggerating! Mom is bedridden now and not at all like she was (physically or mentally) on my sister's last visit in November.
My sister just informed me that she is renting a VACATION RENTAL and a CAR because she doesn't want to "create any more stress for me." WTF? The whole point of their visit was to stay here to help out and give me a break! My older sister drives me crazy, so my younger sister said she could stay at the VRBO with her too! My head just exploded! She kept trying to justify renting a place, so I told her to just do whatever floats her boat!
Lately, I've been very angry and frustrated with everything! This is HARD work and I no longer have a life! I'm home 24/7 with the exception of respite care 6-8 hours a week, where I just run around like a crazy person trying to get errands and shopping done! It's not like I'm doing anything FUN! I had hoped to sneak away for one night and day during their visit but I guess that's squashed now.
I also fear my sister won't be here to help with any of the things I deal with and do all day long since she will have a car and knowing her, will want to go do things when mom is sleeping. News Flash: Mom wakes up ALL THE TIME needing something or she tries to climb out of bed!
Am I wrong to be pissed off at her? Or is this just her not being able (or willing) to deal with the situation? I'm trying to see her side, but failing.
Don't expect your sisters to read your mind or be able to comprehend the magnitude of your stress right now. Write out a list of things these gals can help you with regarding mom's care, and a schedule of her needs. Then give a copy to each and let them know how exhausted you are and how them pitching in would be a huge help to you.
This is a very tough time you're going thru and my heart goes out to you. Try not to let exhaustion fear and stress spoil the time you plan to have w your sisters. They don't get it.
PLEASE just say "It's fine for you to stay wherever you like, but I need to ask you both please to stay with Mom for a few days and let me get respite.
Just ask.
I would also let them know you are going to have eventually to consider in facility care of your Mom before you die of it.
Why would you not be truthful with them? What in the world do you have to lose by it?
I am so sorry and I so wish you respite at this time.
I think it's very good of them to not add the burden of two houseguests on top of dealing with your mother. I wish I never had houseguests at any time -- I just hate it.
When your sisters get there, discuss (don't order) what's going to be going on while they're there. If Mom needs help in the night, then sure, you could ask that they take turns staying at your place to help out and give you an uninterrupted night's sleep. Maybe you'll get to stay at the rental place instead.
Just try to be fair and stop making up what will happened before it happens. Be aware of your own burnout (totally justified) and know where your upset is really coming from, because it isn't from your sisters -- yet.
I'm sure they will still come spend time with you and your mom and you just need to be prepared to tell them EXACTLY what you need them to do for you while they're here.
Plus you must remember that it was you, not your sisters that opted to take care of your mom. You didn't have to you know? It was your choice.
And yes it's a lot caring for someone who is completely bedridden. I know, as my late husband was completely bedridden for the last 22 months of his life.
Instead of expecting your sisters to come rescue you, you need to now get serious about either placing your mom in the appropriate facility, or hire(with her money)more full-time help so you can get your life back, before you end up dying before your mom does.
Your mom(if in her right mind)would never want you killing yourself all because of her. She's had her life and you still have yours to live, so please, please, please, start taking better care of yourself and do what is not only best for your mom but for you as well.
Did they commit to providing hands on care when arranging the visit or did they just want to see her?
I would suggest arranging for facility respite care during their visit so you can have a true break. You also need to have a discussion with them about how you can all work to make better arrangements.
Your example of self sacrifice and the misery of burnout is unlikely to inspire them to volunteer to move in and do the same. You would be better off if you could follow their lead in being a daughter who visits rather than an exhausted 160 hour a week caregiving staff.
”Hi sis. Mom is going to need a sitter from 6 a to 6 pm. Thanks in advance for coming out to help with this as I have matters to tend to.”
And then the hard part.
”Sis, if you don’t want to do this, I have no one else. Im old too.”
Then sit back and see what happens. Maybe nothing, but it would be a dramatic way to present your case.
You need to do something out of the box, and the surprise factor could provide useful information in their reactions because they won’t have had a chance to come up with a rebuttal beforehand.
I do get daily hospice visits now. A facility is not an option since Mom's money is just about gone. She was in Memory Care for 6 months at $6500 a month! I pulled her out before they drained her bank account, just so there would be some money in case she needed hospitalization again, and to pay for respite care. She does not qualify for Medicaid. =(
I believe Mom is now in the final stages of life, and it would kill me to put her somewhere now and not be with her when her time comes. I'm sure this reality is affecting me too and adding to my stress. =(
Your comment about surprising them and them not having time for a rebuttal made me laugh. I do that all the time! I have my answers all planned out when I get another stupid suggestion from my one sister.
Thanks!