My partner has been diagnosed with early onset dementia and is now in a care home. She was my full-time caregiver, so now I’ve employed one. I’m suffering from terrible loneliness as I don’t know anyone local having moved here was her idea. She’s now storing food like a hamster and lashing out at caregivers which, makes me feel so sad as it’s not her. She was such a gentle soul. I’m also just recovering from breast cancer and have been diagnosed with osteoporosis. I have bad anxiety every time I have to go visit her, even worse now that she’s going downhill. I haven’t seen her since before Xmas This also fills me with guilt and dread now. I’m going today and have been up since four thirty worrying about it. Any help/advise would be greatly appreciated. Thanks.
It might end up that you need to look after yourself first, and it might mean moving back to where you came from if you have more support there. You are not in a good state to provide support to your relationship. Hard situation! You really need someone to talk it through with.