I'm struggling dealing with resentment towards my siblings. Any advice?

welcome to the club. I'm over it and know once my mom is gone our relationship is over. I have found ours is not the 1st family this has happened to and won't be the last. I talked to a lady that has been estranged from her brother for 40 years now due to the things that happened when she was left to care for both their parents before they died. Such is life I guess. Right now I have a loving 96 year old to care for and worry about while I work a full time job and with little finances to juggle it all along with my own expenses. But God provides and we make it work without help or helpful input from my siblings. It is what it is. Life goes on.

I know EXACTLY how you feel. I'm sorry to say it probably won't get better. And you are probably better off. Their drama doesn't have to be yours. Stay strong.

Better talk this out with a counselor before irreparable damage is done.

This is a very normal feeling for many caregivers who have either willingly stepped up to take care of an aged parent or have had it thrust upon them by siblings who don’t want to put their life on hold. I’m my father’s caregiver and yes I am struggling with feelings of resentment and irritation towards my siblings, who although are grateful that I’m the one doing it, do sweet bugger all to help in any way. The situation is that my father has always made it obvious to my siblings and myself that I’m the “golden child” I hate that term and I hate the fact that I am his favourite. There shouldn’t be favourites, children should be loved equally and my siblings are definitely not. I’m sure my father feels that it’s his duty to love them.
This has caused a lot of resentment with them towards me. I was pretty rebellious and wild in my youth and did things which I knew would anger him and still he turned a blind eye, while everything my sister and brother did was dealt with in the harshest manner. So maybe this is payback on their part and why I suspect that I was the given the job.
It’s got to the stage that I don’t bother ringing them to tell them anything regarding our father and would be happy to have no contact with them at all. I can’t be bothered because they simply don’t care. Sorry about the rant.

This too has been my life for the past three years or so. I wonder if a study has ever been done about the dynamics surrounding families with parents who need support. Just
anecdotally, it seems like most of the burden falls on one person and that one person more often than not is a woman.

I had a knock down drag out fight with my two sisters and brother over my father's care and the burden of keeping up the house and yard. I just blew up at them and I must have hurt their feelings quite a bit as we stopped talking.

Then about a month ago he fell and hit his head. He died a week ago. His death was unnecessary and the result of the two sisters' refusal to even consider assisted living or adding caregiver hours. At least I was there when he died. The other two had gone home even though the hospice nurse advised he would probably not last the night.

I too have lost respect for my siblings, something I could never have imagined before all this began. We came together while he was ill but now we are in the probate preparation phase and planning the funeral, so the hissing and spitting is starting up again.

I so look forward to getting on with life after this is all over and accepting that my siblings (and I include myself) are not the people I thought they were.

I think my siblings didn't know how much I did to take care of my father. I devoted myself to protecting him through the pandemic. I worked with his geriatric physician to make sure that he was as healthy as he could be at 93. I could have made a list a mile long of the time and effort I took to protect his health.

I imagine that sitting them down and laying out to them what you've done to successfully get your mother to this point might trigger them. Then again, maybe they don't have the wits or the interest in understanding how much work it is and how exhausted it can leave you. On top of that, you're feeling slighted and maybe you should tell them that.

I have a feeling your mother does not have durable medical or financial powers of attorney or you would have mentioned it. If she is still competent enough to manage her affairs, this is a good time for her to get all her estate planning documents drafted.

Suggestions, not legal advice.

VinnieDe66: Prayers sent. I hope that things will get easier for you with your siblings stepping up now. Perhaps it may be difficult to understand depending on what they did or did not do in the past, but maybe you could move forward with some of the care offloaded from you. Let the focus be on your mother's well being.

Hi VinnieDe. Your feelings are perfectly normal. It's very difficult to sacrifice so much and then to be shown so little respect. I moved out of state to care for my parents; my older siblings remain out of state. I can't imagine what I'd do if they showed up and started making "informed" decisions about my parents' well being. If I was to give them the benefit of the doubt, I imagine their motivation would be to relieve guilt. I have one sister who apologizes every chance she has for not being here and helping. I'd rather be living with my folks and caring for them, than to be saddled with the guilt she bears.

I don't know anything about legal action or services that might be able to guide you properly. I just wanted you to know you are a saint, struggling through a very difficult season. You are not alone. ~ VV

Who has POA or legal rights to making medical decisions. If it is you and they are making decisions without consulting you then speak to an attorney. Preferably an elder care one.

Well...
I have been responsible for my parents care for almost four years.
I find that when my sibling and their family comes on the annual guilt trip, I am left with a pile of unfinished ideas and applications to complete that will make mom and dad's life easier.
In the past I would be filled with resentment and rage and be filled with stress and anxiety and I needed to find a better way for myself and my family. I used to feel obligated to follow through to make my sibling happy with their requests.
So now I look through the paperwork and shred it and do what I think is best which so far has been nothing. In a few weeks everyone will settle into a new routine and just go back to living their lives. Don't defend yourself you've done
enough.

Accept that they’re probably not going to change. Selfishness will continue with them. It is indeed saddening and extremely disappointing to see these qualities in our own siblings when we know mom/dad cared so much for us. And now that mom/dad needs help the most, their selfish children are no where to be found.

How about scheduling a family meeting with a Geriatric Psychiatrist who can mediate, educate and medicate?

If your mother did not set up powers of attorney which specify who is responsible for medical and financial matters, there is not much you can do, unless you want to start a fight with them. Seek therapy for yourself, to help you as a caregiver, and with having to deal with your siblings, who are causing you anxiety and grief. You have been the responsible one, and you should be proud that you stepped up when needed. All the best to you and your mother.

My brother shows up at moms memory care every other month with a cupcake in hand, flirting with all the nurses and they think he is the best thing since sliced bread. They don't know that he would not help his mom in any way when she was still in her home. I had to cut her grass, pay her bills, grocery shop, pick up meds, give meds, take her to appointments, put her house on the market, sell her car, find a facility, move her in and buy new furniture for it that would fit, file her taxes, do her laundry, etc....I just arranged and pre-paid for her funeral this morning because she is close to running out of money and she will need to file for Medicaid. I am on year 11 and it has aged me... no two ways about it.

I no longer dwell on it, because the anger was eating me alive. I will never forgive him, but I don't focus on it. I have had to move on. That is my advice to you....let it go. You can't control them and you can't get that time back.

And the siblings are probably patting themselves on the back for being such loving children? And now that mom’s in care, they can be devoted “helpers”? And dismiss your sacrifices (or better still, say gee, you did a lot and thanks — like that evens the scale)?

A friend once said the more enlightened you are, the greater the burden. That said, I’m awestruck but the ignorance and narcissism of the clueless.

I can so relate. I feel so much anger and sometimes hatred toward my two siblings for not caring about our mom at all. I do all the caretaking and now live with my mom. My sister lives NEXT DOOR and never bothers to see our mom unless it's a family event. My brother, whom my mom adores, is fifteen minutes away and gets mad at me if I ask him to come see the mom who adores him. I have lost all respect for them because you know they will be first in line to get any inheritance money. It's disgraceful. Now, I've ASKED both to come see our mom more because she is sad a lot and getting more advanced with dementia, etc. They haven't done a damn thing. Your resentment and anger is real, but here's the problem. It eats away at our health, makes us sick, right? The siblings don't care, they're fine with how things are. But we, the caregivers get eaten up with our anger to the point where it threatens our health and sanity. We cannot let that happen. If you have sat down with them and honestly told them your feelings and they disregard you, there has to be a way to accept that this is the kind of people they are and try to let it go...Are you the executor of her health care directive, etc? If you are, and she has put the decisions on you, then let your siblings know that firmly...If there are no plans, you somehow have to find a way to be ok with them taking over, because they may not stop just because it is hurting you. Some people just don't care. Can you allow them to take over a bit more and give yourself the gift of more time to focus on you? Maybe, just maybe, this is their way of dealing with THEIR guilt for not helping you much before? I do relate, and hope my own insights might help a bit. Wishing you a positive outcome!

Sounds to me as if the siblings were absent when the OP could have used their help before their mom was placed; and now that their mom’s in a care facility, the siblings know they won’t be expected to ‘do’ anything and they’re ready to jump in with their advice/opinions, etc. If OP has the legal/medical say so over their mom, OP needs to provide more insight here as to how they are ‘taking over’. Do the siblings have the legal ability to make changes to anything the OP has in place with the care facility, finances, etc.? Too many unknowns to offer advice.

I was exactly where you are. I moved into my mom's basement to be able to care for her 24/7. When I no longer could provide the level of care she needed alone (I have 3 adult siblings) I had to go the nursing home route. I was still there 7 days a week after work and all day on the weekends while my siblings maybe maybe visited for an hour or 2 one day a week. We all are local to each other so distance wasn't the issue. I would get so angry and yell. The frustration was insane. But I was the one who had all that 1 on 1 time with her before she passed. Me and me alone

How would you prefer them to work with you? Can you share that with them? If they don't agree, can you feel OK about stepping back and letting them carry on? Be there but don't be invested? Maybe this is a gift that allows you to live with less stress and anxiety since you don't now have to do everything? I don't see this as "peace at any price". To me this is finding a way to peace that is ultimately the best place from which to live and decide. When this is over, I don't want you to find out the stress has created health issues for you! I often wonder if this is some cosmic learning experience, though frankly I would have been happy to read the memo and avoid the experiential learning! Wishing you peace.

SpringRain, I don't think being an adult means that you ignore the parents who raised you. Helping out to whatever extent you can would be the adult thing to do. I've noticed that the immigrants in my community are living three generations to a house and loving it. Do they know something we don't? Maybe they know that there are lessons to be learned from our elders, a concept we don't get in an America where older people are ignored. My mother was a bitch (Yes, I said it) and yet I learned a hell of a lot of lessons about self-care and setting boundaries from caring for her. I was able to face issues with her that I'd buried and feel healthier for having confronted them and her. I also learned that two of my sibling are selfish, self-centered jerks. I was as busy with my career and life as my siblings were, yet, I managed to help care for my mother to the extent that I could while acting as a secondary caregiver to one brother who did most of the work. He got to do most of the caregiving because he was the golden child. It was stressful but he got the honors--which made me glad I was the scapegoat and never the golden child. Every child should help, even if it's just a little, based on their relationship with the parent, in my opinion.

i can relate. my parents are both gone now as are my siblings and their families. my siblings have not passed away though. we are just permanently broken. do i care? yes. do they? maybe. that's one possible outcome for you. i suggest that unless that sounds like what you deeply want and will want as holidays and special occasions and "just feel like chatting" days come and go, and that you know deeply that you you will be happy without them, that you reconsider how YOU want to go forward. i'm not saying this to be mean. it's occurred with
many, many families. consider this carefully when you are feeling "sane"...you know what i mean. i send you warm hugs.

I hear you! We are 3 daughters , I am the middle one who lives closest to my parents. Several, several months ago, I dropped hints and suggestions as to how their care can (must) be shared between us all even though I do live closest. I was keen to state that although I live the closest , it would not be AOK for me to do it all so to speak. I dont want/need that title and it would affect my sanity too. I did feel the complete judgement from my older sis who doesn't think I visit them enough/do enough etc for them. She has stopped saying this verbally after I confronted it during lockdown but her eyes say it all whenever we meet, which is ever so rarely now. Whilst this is very sad in one way, not having communication with her is a much better way for me. I have realised that no matter what I do/ dont do she will forever criticise me. So be it. If the issue wasn't my parents care, it would be another matter as it has been for as long as I can remember. I am certainly not giving away my power anymore and allow her looks etc to affect my happiness. I now decide what I can/can't do for my parents and what other ppl (including family members) think of that is none of my business! Put your emotional well being first I say and do what you can. Good luck!

welcome to the club

I would have been happy to have siblings to help out in any small way even. I didn't. My parents had rocky relationships with all of their children (blended family) and I was the only one left who could overlook bad treatment because they were old and my parents.

Vinnie, please accept any help offered and try to accept it graciously. Maybe they just now realize they need to do better to help you out. Obviously none of us know the entire story from your short post but from an outsider looking in, step back and let the other children take some responsibility if they are willing. It doesn't have to be all on you and it shouldn't be all on you.

If I have it all wrong, write more so we can pinpoint and narrow down our advice and opinions.

Tell them that. Also do you have the power of attorney over your mom or does one of them? Don't sit and stew in those emotions or you will find yourself erupting at them at some point and that won't help the situation. I know it won't be easy but it is best to have a reasonable conversation with them calmly if you can. Otherwise if your mom is still able to speak and think independently for herself, talk to her about if nothing else getting a medical power of attorney with you as the proxy. That way medical decisions have to come through you. An elder lawyer or any lawyer really that does that can help you. I said elder lawyer simply because that is what I have most of my patients use.

It is painful to realize that the happy family and wonderful siblings you knew could have been partly an illusion. Many of us have been there.

Your relationships are being tested snd some (or all) might not pass. As your mom ages and more stress is introduced (and issues like money come into the limelight) the relationships could deteriorate further. You could see ugliness that is downright heartbreaking in people you previously trusted completely. In the future, you may not feel loving and close (or even talk) as you once did, and if that happens you will still be okay.

Lean in to friends (your chosen “siblings”) as these relationships may prove more lifelong lasting than the biological ones.

Protect your mother and her wishes as best as you can.

You are absolutely not alone.

Go on a month-long cruise and let them do the work.

Forget them do you and can you help you mother is the question and can you afford some help if you do take her

Oh VinnieDe66, Many of us have walked this same road and it's not for the faint of heart so I send you best wishes. As for practical matters, does your mother have a POA and are you it? If you are POA this isn't going to get easier for the short-term but at least you'll have legal standing. I was POA and Executrix for both parents and as added complication I was the only adult child living outside of the country so my older twin siblings were quite angry about this. Fact is neither sibling is proficient with administrative work and someone has to support elderly parents.

I'm sorry to say things between you and your siblings may be tense for the foreseeable future. I put my parents into LTC in Sept 2018 and lost Mom in March 2019, The last time I saw or spoke to my brothers and their families was at her funeral. In Jan 2021 when I lost Dad to Covid they received texts from me which imho was all they deserved since neither brother nor their spouses or adult children opted to visit him in the last 18 months of his life.

Generally when I read stories like mine I assume there was a very dysfunctional family dynamic so I'll take the time to be clear up who my parents were. They adopted the three of us, moved us out to the country, bought us puppies, ponies, and bunnies, got me braces, sent us to summer camp and college and were both hardworking people. They were kind and good and sweet and deserved better than what my brothers gave. In fact they would have been far better off to not haved adopted twin boys and instead enjoy their life together with a daughter who adored them.

I only hope you fare better than I because obviously I'm still furious.

Your lucky. At least they are there. I don't have no one in my family that even raises a finger, even to the point of abandonment.

So sorry for your issues..My brother and I slowly found a balance to our attending to mothers needs. She is in assisted living after a year in memory care..it has been a long difficult journey. I am the “worker bee”. I do all the MD’s, finances, shopping, navigating staff issues, toe nail clipping etc. I have decided to forgive and forget and see this as my walk in life. I got some online mental counseling. I also attend a dementia support group. I feel so much better. My brothers “help” with mom is sporadic. Everyone really has to find their way in this difficult stage of life. Good Luck..