So what should I do? Move back in with my grandma, go to a shelter with my boyfriend, or possibly talk to my landlord?

I'm sorry if you are serious. This forum though is mainly for people who what to discuss caregiving issues for elders and support those involved in caregiving or those that need care, not a support group for those on the edge of homelessness. There may be other forums out there that are better suited for you. Also, those that have judged or mocked you may not have the full picture of you and your situation, but more significantly many don't understand the impact mental illness or mental disorders, or personality disorders can significantly hinder or limit the ability to obtain decent wage-earning jobs over the course of a lifetime. People tend to view it as just laziness and are unaware that holding down meaningful employment for these people is very difficult and for some impossible. I'm not necessarily saying you fit into this category, but if you do, I'm sorry and I hope you get the help you need. If I were you I would do the best you can to get along with the people in your life if you currently have housing. Do what you have to do to stay housed. Shelters are generally not a good place to be in. Try to make amends with the people in your life. But again we do not have the full picture of what is really going on and this forum is likely not suited to you. I do wish you well.

It all sounds like poor, hungry, self-pitying, lazy, and much too easily ‘hurt’. Mental illness and disability can be very easy self-justifying words to throw around with no details. What do you do with your time besides write poetry?

If you are serious, yes, you should move back with your grandmother until you can support yourself somehow, through disability insurance or a job. If you plan to be a caregiver to someone, you must get the particulars in writing before moving in and move out when it turns out it is not what you thought you were getting into. Cooking is not being a chef. If you are actually a chef, with the proper accreditation, there are tons of jobs out there for that right now. Mental illness doesn't stop you from doing what you are doing now for this man, so perhaps it will not be in the way of a real job with real money? Being in the workforce and self sufficient is very life expanding and will offer you a good future. It might be good if both you and your boyfriend can get your own selves settled before trying to live together again. Also, I hope you are sharing your poetry somehow with the world through being involved with something like poetry night at art centers or somewhere.

Every. Single. Business. Has. A. Help. Wanted. Sign. In. The. Window.

What should you do?

Go get a job, both you and the kind appreciative boyfriend, and quit mooching off of others.

Neither of you are entitled to anything free in life, not even food stamps which I'M PAYING FOR btw and which you did not "have to get on" had you gotten a JOB like a useful member of society.

Hello?

Go peddle this nonsense elsewhere. This is a forum for caregivers to elderly loved ones who are tired and worn out, and in no mood for B.S.

I'm pretty sure this is a troll everybody. Please don't feed the trolls...

"Poet" is not a job. Stick to it as a hobby until you're wealthy enough to be a lady of leisure who can pen lines while eating bonbons. I have a relative who fancies herself a poet and can do so because she's retired now and has more money than God. She has a paid writing coach and enough angst to be the best poet in the world, but she's only been published twice -- for no pay. Follow her example.

You've been taking advantage of an old man who took advantage of you more. Score: Old Guy - 1 You - 0

IF this is a real question, then I'd advise you to grow up, go to a shelter, and get your act together. You aren't special, and you need to make a living like anyone else. If your BF isn't on board, ditch him.

Here we go again...

Jesus also helps those who help themselves.

You asked this man to be a live-in why should he pay you. You really are renting a room and doing around the house is payment. Then u have the nerve to move a boyfriend in who has no job. I bet your grands were driving you crazy because they were telling u to get a job. No child of mine out of high school lives in my house without having a job or they are in college. Once 18, they are responsible for themselves. Helping hand yes, supporting them completely no.

This man owes you nothing.

It sounds like it's long overdue that you and your boyfriend grow up and quite trying to mooch off of people, and get jobs and get a place of your own. Lord have mercy, just about every establishment in every town is hiring, so there should not be any excuses as to why you both can't get one.
Again, it's just a matter of growing up and deciding once and for all that you want better for your life and want to be in charge of your own destiny. You can do whatever you set your mind to.
And since you mentioned the name of Jesus, the Bible teaches us in Philippians 4:13, that we can do all things through Christ who gives us strength. So you may want to start leaning on His strength to get you on the right path of life. I can't think of a better Person than Jesus, to help you now. He's better than any government handout, that's for sure.
God bless you.

Mutual grifter situation.

You and your boyfriend need to move out and get jobs and a place on your own.

Go to a shelter with your boyfriend. Your current living situation is unhealthy for everyone involved. Start learning some skills so you can obtain employment and a place to live on your own.