I am really thinking of releasing myself of all responsibility for my dad. He has gone potty and I can't stop crying. I feel like I hate everything about him right now, whatever illness he has ( still waiting for a diagnosis) is just exaggerating all of his worst personalty traits. I simply don't have the energy to cope with another day of this hell. Sorry for the rant but just needed to voice my feelings.
It does get long, does it not.
Star, call Adult Social Care - you'll find the number on your local authority's website - and ask their advice. Do you actually have any formal responsibility for your Dad, such as Lasting Power of Attorney or anything like that?
Does Dad live with you?
How old is he?
You say you are waiting for a diagnosis. Has he had testing done?
Is your father having dementia?
Are you POA for your father?
Without some knowledge of what is happening with you I can't imagine we can hazard an opinion or a guess. Can do nothing but say sorry, and hope things get better for you.