My mother is one of the most miserable humans on Earth, and has been for years. Whenever anyone has asked her "How are you doing?", for as far back in my memory as I can reach, I can never remember her saying "I'm fine". Now she's smoked herself to death. She has COPD, CHF, steroid-induced diabetes, a colostomy, osteoporosis, bone spurs in her neck, neuropathy in her limbs, brittle skin that tears at the drop of a hat...the list seems endless. She refuses to get out of bed to try to exercise to keep up any strength, and wants me to do more and more and more for her.
She's in the hospital right now because of a fall last week. She says her knees gave out.
I don't think it's so horrible that I just want this woman to finally have some peace, and yes, honestly, for the rest of us around her to have some as well. The discord and disharmony this narcissist spreads with her always ALWAYS negative attitude takes a toll. She will never change, and her health will only continue to go downhill.
I realize that I don't get to make the decision of when she goes, but I will admit that I do want her to. I think it's the only way she'll finally be "fine".
I'm very aware that she will pitch a fit, but if you are feeling that your home is not your home, and your health is being negatively affected, would setting some boundaries give you any sense of control?
She will be coming home from the hospital after a lung-related condition, so it might be a natural time to "change the rules". I also wonder if she has oxygen in her room....another valid reason to limit her smoking to outside areas. Perhaps setting limits like that might also lessen the amount she smokes, simply because it will be an inconvenience.
When she argues, you can be a 'broken record', not fighting back, just restating the new rules and telling her that ciggies in the house will be confiscated and destroyed, or whatever consequence works for you.
I apologize if you have tried these things...there's nothing worse than a stranger attempting to offer solutions to problems that you have been living with for years. On the other hand, sometimes fresh eyes can see things that we are too close to see. As caregivers, I think we lose our sense of ourselves after a while and forget that we have a right to fresh air, a peaceful living environment, time to ourselves.
take care, bandit
I have a new directive called Physician Orders for Life-Sustaining Treatment and it calls for "comfort care" only which has been signed by me and his doctor. It provides instructions to EMT's and hospital staff. No feeding tube, limited use antibiotics (Ok to use for UTI, but not for pneumonia), etc.
We all do our best to take care of our parents and ease their suffering. I have no idea what will come for my dad, but I pray everyday that he passes away here and I hope it is soon.
What you are going through is so painful. I'm so sorry for your mom and your family. Hugs, Cattails
I think this is an important issue to discuss. I have POA for my dad. It allows me to sign for him, gives me permission to handle financial and other issues, but it does not allow me to speak for him in a medical situation.
You can obtain a health care directive that specifically gives you the authority to make medical decisions for one who is not able to do so for themselves. I asked if you had that because it's important that people realize how tricky the issues can be and what is necessary.
Make sure you have a POA for your mom and a clear medical directive that gives you the right to speak for her when she can no longer speak for herself. Just knowing what she wants isn't good enough.
Make the best of those weekends. Cattails