It's so hard watching my husband becoming less than he was. I have cried many tears as of late. Sometimes when I just try to put something together that he could have done and I struggle with. I miss the smile he used to have, it's such a sense of loss, even now while typing tears come, everybody says I'm strong, but I feel so tired.
Sending you love and hugs. I know its hard. It is hard watching a loved one's health deteriorate. And to feel as if you always have to be the strong one, the capable one. Please don't be afraid to ask friends and family for help. Look for supports in the community or through church. You are not alone in your thoughts and feelings. Thinking of you. Please know we are all here to listen.
And for those who can't pay for services, I agree with notes above. Accept offers of help, we almost all get them. Always have a list of tasks to be done and parcel them out when someone offers. Give them a choice --- 'I know I am going to need some help moving boxes out of the garage soon. If you have any time over the next few weeks, I would love some help.' Or, do you know of any ideas of how I can get ____ to rehab each week? Most folks are happy to help but don't know what is stumping you. Just don't expect them to be available on a minutes notice. : - ))