Mom had a stroke Monday late morning. Was sent to ER and sent back. Can't swallow on hospice now. This ALF is superb. Brought a bed to me, some aids and nurses cried when they were told she wouldn't make it through the night. 24 hours she is still with me. They bring me food, snacks
I still can't give up. I lay her watching her breath. Constantly telling her how much I love her. I'm in denial even I know without being able to swallow this can't go on forever. I'm in shock and don't know what will happen.
The funeral was a fiasco. Wish I would have taken orangeblossum
I tried to hug a nephew he turned away. He barley knew mom
The worst was when I was standing at the casket about half way through and another nephew came up and put both hands on casket, I thought he was coming up to be kind. Well, I rubbed his back and he said "don't do it". I (dumbly said) don't do what? He said very rudely, "leave me be"! So I turned to walk away, ( hindsight I Should have him to get out or at least ask why he even came)
So I turned and to my surprise, it was like moms spirit jumped in me and I turned back and said, "well, you left her be all these years, so I have no problem leaving you be". I was shocked about the whole thing. Ruined the whole day for me and I can't get past the nerve of it. It's eating me alive. No class whatever.
I'm sure in their "heard" they were seeing who had the nerve to show their "low" class. Just a few years ago this same nephew saw my daughter and she mentioned the family not speaking to me, he said, hey, I'll talk to her, that his family all they thought about was money (got that right). His mom married very wealthy after my brother died. She is the on who started the whole thing years ago. As soon as she married my brother decades ago it was only a few month before she caused the first fall out.
I'm still swimming in my head - foggy brain
So sad they ruined my moms funeral.
All those nephews and not 1 would be Paul bearer. I did catch 1 and got him to help, but had to have funeral home people and my daughters in laws do it while they stood in the back.
I had a lot of support from friends and other family, thankfully
Everyone is asking the same question. "why did they even come"