Was I wrong to confront my father who has dementia about taking an apple from a tree near a roadside farm stand?
I know it was morally right and ethically correct to confront him, but now he is giving me the silent treatment and I'm wondering if I was wrong to confront him because I know he has dementia? Other things that were obviously "taken" have appeared in his yard, such as some historic bricks from a nearby renovation project & some wild flowers from a nearby public park. My husband told him the bricks were being re-used at the reno site, so my dad did return the bricks for a week or two, but I noticed they re-appeared in his yard. Today I thought it would be fun to take him to a farm stand to buy some fresh produce. Before entering the farm stand, he walked right into an adjacent orchard and touched a bunch of beautiful red apples. Inside the farm stand, he noticed none of the apples were available for sale, and I explained that the apples weren't ripe yet and that the farmer would know when they were ready to be sold. He said they looked ripe to him and walked back into the orchard, picked an apple right in front of the farmer's house, and put it in his pocket. When he got in the car I asked if he had taken an apple and he said "well, yes". I said he shouldn't do that, that I knew the farmer (which I do) and that I was not happy that he had taken the apple. He proceeded to argue with me that the apples were ripe, that the farmer wouldn't miss it, etc. When we arrived back at my home, he soon pulled the apple out of his pocket and began to rave about what an intense bright red color it was. I asked him not to bring the apple out into my house, that I was upset that he had taken something. I asked him if he would take an apple from a store without paying, which really offended him because he said of course not, that at his ripe old age I should know by now that he is not a thief. I then went on to point out that he would be (and has been) very upset if/when neighbors wander into his yard to help themselves to his grapes (he has a few vintage grape vines in his yard). He then went on to say he was "sick of being treated this way" and then stormed out of my house, leaving without having our usual brunch. The storming out of the house part is nothing new, I've endured walk outs and hang ups since childhood. The "help yourself" attitude isn't new either- over the years he's been confronted about minor infringements such as using garbage dumpsters that aren't his, etc. I've always had a rocky relationship with him. My husband and I and our children are literally the only people left in his life. He still "lives alone with help mostly from me" about 30 minutes away in a rental home that my husband and I own. He is still driving, though he's been restricted to local familiar routes by his doctors. My main question is should I stop confronting him about these petty thefts, because my long term goal is to keep him safe and cared for and to have his trust for when I really need to bring in more outside help or move him into assisted living? I guess in writing this post, I realize the question is even bigger. How will I know when his belligerence is just his baseline personality, or a sign that he really needs more help than I can provide on my own?
There's a whole lot I want to say here. But basically I can leave it with the fact your Dad comes from another time. My time. When we used to pull an apple right off the tree, admire it, shine it up, bite in and say either "delicious" or "oops. Not ripe yet".
I think that much of this makes me think of all the many indignities our elders suffer, all the losses one after another. The loss of being "the parent", "the teacher", the "fixer". The "protector" and the "provider" of and for our children. It has to be difficult, don't you think, to be treated then, after long life, like a child that stole an apple?
Now. To the bricks. The bricks are a problem.
This entire post gave me the giggles more than once, and I know you are serious. But dementia is dementia, and if your Dad perceives you as trying to become his Mom, he is going to back up against that with a lot of fury.
I would love for you to attend a few sessions with a Social Worker who specializes in life passages, and in working with people with Alzheimer's. Your intentions are great. But you need a good dose of the realities of dementia, and what might work best.
Best to you, and to Dad. I grew up in orchards. I love apple time. ALL OF IT. So I hope you can find one of those farms where Dad helps you pick, and then you and he together make a whole mess of applesauce and cider. Have good fun.
The apple I would not have said anything about.
Any other theft that you discover if the items can be returned without a problem do so with an apology and an explanation. (I did quite a few of those myself)
It truly sounds like your dad should not be living alone.
I would either make plans to ...
Find a caregiver for him.
A move to Assisted Living then transition to Memory Care when that is needed.
last resort..move him in with you. NOT the ideal situation. If this does enter as a possibility please read any one of the hundreds of posts on this site about that very situation.
Your last question...how will you know he needs more help....he needs it now just by the amount of supervision it would take to monitor his behavior
II personally think that you are building a wall that will cause you serious problems in the future.
He is not a child and you should not treat him like one, even though dementia makes it seem like they are children. I mean, his doctor has said he could drive close to home, you have a long journey ahead of you, so learn to pick your battles now to save your own sanity.
After several months of this one day I finally snapped and told her she should be careful of of making those accusations without proof. That the AL would have to investigate and discipline the aids. She was shocked and said she didn’t really think that person had stolen anything. I think it was her way of masking her forgetfulness.
You cannot control every aspect of his life, even now (could you ever?). Choose your battles. Don't fuss over anything that does not endanger life or limb, He's still driving without objection of his doctors. Endure the "walkouts" and "hangups" as you always have. Some of his failings, regardless of your feelings about "ethics", may just be ignored. He is old. Old age happens.
Is it really worth it to engage in such battles at this stage in his life and YOURS? Save your energy for what may be a more difficult task later on of getting him needed care, WHEN and not before, it is essential.
The down side to his behavior is many people will not realize he has dementia if he is caught. He could end up in jail, depending on what he takes, and the illness identified after the fact. He doesn't need to go to jail. He may be told he is restricted to certain routes while driving, but that does not mean he will stay on the route. Should he have a 'moment' he could end up many miles away and lost.
He already needs more help than he's getting if returned bricks appear back in the yard again. Clearly, he is doing things during the day that you are not aware of. It's time to move him closer to you or to another living arrangement (facility or your house). Since the house belongs to you, it's possible you could tell him you need to make some major repairs and no one can live in the house while repairs are going on to initiate this move.
If he will wear a necklace device, buy him an urgent call button. The one made by Great Call - 5 star can be tracked online 24/7 in the event he wanders or gets lost in the car. It would be a great investment until you sort this all out. Walgreens even has a deal going on right now for 25% off - instore or online. I've had one for my parent for many years and very pleased with the product.
How do I say this in a kind, gracious, and accepting manner to you?
Your original premise is wrong.
When you say:
"I know it was morally right and ethically correct to confront him".
It was not right for you to correct him. imo.
1) There is a benefit to allowing people to realize the consequences of their own acts. I doubt that your father's actions went unnoticed by the farmer. Maybe the farmer expects a certain amount of theft, or "gleaning" of apples. Throughout history, this has been true. You can look up gleaning.
If there was a consequence to pay, the farmer would have said something. Perhaps the farmer was being gracious.
2) With Alzheimer's, you may need to be quietly paying for that one apple when you go up to purchase your own apples, to support your Dad, and the farmer. imo. Without a word of criticism.
3) When my brother harshly lectured me for correcting people, his point came across loud and clear. And, he was right! He said: "People do not like to be corrected." He said: "Mind your own business". He said: "You are not the morality police!" And, on and on he went....
4) If you have strong opinions about ethics and morality, those ideas should be applied to yourself, not others, imo. It is not a good place to live in if you feel responsible for other's actions. Others will have their own reasons for acting as they do.
Someone has mentioned: "Lighten up." Yes, you need to do that. My own sister will have said that to me, as well as accuse me of being a prude, anal retentive, etc. I did not have to become lawless to lighten up. I did not become "like my family" or change my values.
Your statement worries me: "I asked him not to bring the apple out into my house, that I was upset that he had taken something."
This was way over-the-top girl. He is not bootlegging whiskey, not bringing in illegal drugs....it was one apple, like you said, a "minor infringement."
Maybe the only one suffering for all these minor infractions is you.
There is a statement to cover what you may be suffering from:
"You can be happy, or you can be right".
Do you want to have people enjoy being around you? If you found someone who is exactly like you, would you enjoy being around them?
If you are to become your father's caregiver, that role may bring out the worst in you. You seemed to be planning a takeover of his life.
Please get some therapy about your personality issues. Hire a really laid-back caregiver to watch over him, to give you both a break from extreme legalism on your part.
You will do well with ethics and morals to guide your own actions.
What Dad did was "scrumping." Never actually acceptable, but not traditionally treated in the same way as outright theft. More like... poaching. Sort of questionable private enterprise, sub rosa.